Tuesday, November 06, 2012
Days 4 and 5--So grateful for my kiddos!
I am famous in some circles for saying, "I don't really think having a baby will change my life much." I get reminded of that statement periodically. How funny it is to think that I ever thought that--and enough to say it out loud! Having these four babies has changed my life, my body, my heart, my very being. Just yesterday I read a quote by a famous actress who didn't believe it when people told her she looked 'glowing' when she was pregnant, that she really looked like a whale and everyone was afraid to tell her. Too bad for her that she didn't feel glowing--I sure did. Being pregnant taught me to love my body in a way that I never had before. What a miracle! Giving birth to these children taught me to trust my body in a way I never had before. Being their mother--well, that sure gives me pause and makes me question everything and challenges my integrity daily.
They are growing so very quickly. We are on the verge of big changes for the big three, and in the midst of big changes for the little. It boggles my mind to think how fast they have grown and how much we have all learned together in this time. I marvel at the thought of all there is left to learn with them and from them.
I am grateful for learning how to be calm when a baby is screaming. I am grateful for learning how it feels to be needed 24/7 by another human being. I am grateful for the gift of breastfeeding. I am grateful to have been able to stay home and watch and participate in nearly all of this growing up. I am grateful for the opportunity to see four people learn how to walk, talk, read, write and do so many more things. I am grateful for all of the handwritten love notes, cards and home made birthday gifts--including this years: a beautiful necklace and bracelet, and a homemade flashlight! I am grateful for all of the times when they have forgiven me for being less wonderful than I would like. I am grateful for the chance to do things better the next time. I am grateful for the embodiment of joy and fun and spirit that they are. I am grateful that my heart grows more full each day! I am grateful for you, Gus, Eleanor, Lucy Sky and Forest!